Thursday, February 2, 2012

finally i let you go



what a day.........its raining out there......with heavy rains.........its like the weather know exactly how i feel today............yup, i'm really sad........i never thought it could be end like this...........all my waiting for all this years n past is disappear just like that..........i'm regret that it happen to be ended this way..........i still remember my wish a year n a half ago.......i wish to meet you before i'm going back to my hometown.........i guess, that wish will never come true........as i thought......

i feel so sorry about you........i'm sorry that i didn't choose to love you.......its been the third time a guess......since the last two years.........i know..........we have planning that someday, we will be married........but i have destroy all the plan.........cause i fall in love with him......i'm so sorry.......

why would it happen to be the same things?????..........its been my third relationship now since we become friend........yet i still didn't choose to love you...........i also dont know why........now i have let you go........it makes me really sad.......why i should be sad?........i dont know........the tears just burst every time my head start thinking about you........i'm stop crying for a while coz i dont want to make him worry about me..........still when i'm alone taking my bath, my tears suddenly burst again......

please help me..........help me forget about u.......i feel really guilty for what i have dont.........i'm sorry coz i cant be as strong as you.......i didn't take care of my heart carefully.......i'm trying, but my heart seems cant hold any longer.......i always warn u about it.........but u thought i'm joking around, only to make u worried..........all the things i've complain about u being far, about u who rarely contact me.........i really mean it.......coz i know i dont have that strong heart.........

i was hoping u would call me when you come back to malaysia.........but you didn't......you promise me that we would have our first meeting n date when you come back to malaysia..........you promise me that you will never go far away from me again.......you promise that i will never be alone..........i was waiting for that..........i hold my feeling towards my bestfriend, coz at that time what i know he still have a girlfriend n i was waiting for you to come back......yet where are you????

you said you have been in hospital for 2 weeks............why didn't you tell me????...........why you always keep things hidden from me?.........i want to know you..........i want to know every things about you.........but its too late now.......have let my hands go........i will never turn back........even if this relationship i have now, will have the same ending as before........saya redha je........its Allah decision all this turn to be this way........i accept it with open heart.......

if we ever been born again, i hope u r the first one i meet........


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