Saturday, November 26, 2011

after awhile

assalamualaikum....

greetings to everyone who come to my blog........welll, its been awhile since my last post.......its not that forget about my blog......but I was busy with my PPTA that is my thesis.....i NEVER though that doing a thesis is very tough.....i hate doing it....hoohohohohoho my life not much change even now....everythings is the same I guess......hehehe

today I eat Walls MOO ice cream......yummy3 its delicious and very creamy too.........feel so good to eat ice cream in the hot weather....i feel like i was melting like the ice cream.........hahaha since I dont know yet what to post in this blog, I shall continue it in another post.....with another story of my life of cource........

see ya later......bubye

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Am I doing the right thing?


Its been a while since my last post i think......well eventually i dont know what to be post in my blog for the time being.......cause its like i'm very busy i guess.....am i?.....hahahaha maybe yes, and maybe no.........i have a lot of works.....but i like to dig some time for me to rest and relax........that why i busy yet seems to be not......ohhh, what kind of sentences i make?......very complicated i guess to be read by somebody else.......huhhh, as if there someone like to read my blog...........;p

i was thinking whether i'm doing the right thing or not.......i have a friend.....an old friend but not old enough to be called 'old' like old school friend..........that person is a best friend of mine.....more than just a best friend i guess, or very best or even more........that friend of mine is very far from me......far than i could ever imagine..........gosh, its hard to tell a story when there is no mane to be spoke of.....lets just pretend that the nickname is ZH......(^_*)

ZH is kind of busy person and all ZH know is work work and work.....ohh, and study study study also.........ZH is so nice to me even though i like to yell a lot.....hahaha what a patient person....i'm very lucky to have a friend like ZH.....so lucky enough......yet its hard to contact ZH, and i dont know why......mybe ZH is so busy like a bee........dont know when ZH is having a peace rest........

Because of its so hard to contact ZH, i choose to give up.........i have tried many ways......contact via phone, email, fb n skype........yet my effort seems nothing.....its nothing!.....there's no changes....not even a progress!........i hate it........i'm tried of waiting all of this.......why cant u contact me?........why u have to seclude yourself from me?.......why do u do this to me?!!.........huh, i wish to tell ZH all that......but thats no use.......even if it reach, ZH will never reply it...

The worst things are i already remove ZH from being my friend in fb and in skype............shit!.....why should i do that?!.....i think coz i cant stand it anymore.......cant stand waiting anymore...........waiting without any news.........i feel like i was being tested.........and i hate it......hate it a lot.........now its a fair square i guess......ZH would not know any updates about me, and i would not know any updates about ZH......huh, as if ZH ever think about me.....

I dont know whether what i'm doing now is right or wrong........i cant predict it........i have no instinct about it.........i do it coz i juz following my heart........my heart that have hurt.......hurt with ZH attitude.......even so, some there deep in my heart, i still waiting for ZH.......yeah, thinking about the logic it might be impossible for ZH to contact me again........coz its been a long time now.......yet i still wish to continue and think about ZH....

For all the years have past, i still never meet ZH even once.......not even once i tell u.......doesnt it sound weird?.......have a friend more than 3years yet still never meet each other?........i wish i could meet ZH in the future........i really2 wish so.........ZH have promise me to come and see me here......but its just left with words only.........words that spreading through the air only.......ZH never keep promise........n never come here......so should i wait even more?

i'm now just proceed with my life here........waiting to finish my degree........its few month left....emmmmm....if i not miscalculate it......it should be 11 month left............then i shall fly away from this Peninsular Malaysia back to my sweet big island so called 'the borneo island'.....there's not much time to say goodbye now.......coz maybe after i return to my home town, i'll never return to Peninsular again........i guess, coz i'm not sure either......

ARGHHH!!!!......how i miss ZH soo much.........i wish that i could tell ZH about it.........this story will stop here......i dont know if there will be any continue story or this is the last..........i wish ZH would read this blog.......will all my wish come true???

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

i hate disgusting man

hai everyone!

how was your day recently?..........its been a while since my last post...........hope your day will full with happy things around you..........for me, i wish to have all happy days in my life........but that not as easy as you think it would be..........yesterday i was so happy yet today i feel so disgusting with what happen...........

i always wish that i would not bumped into something that i really dont wanna.......all my fears come true today........i suddenly bumped with that wretched man with his witch.......OMG!! feel like i fall hardly from the sky to the ground.........what the fake!! sound like my evil come out from my mind right......but only people that know the truth would know why i feel like that.........

how would you as a girl feel when your boyfriend tell you that he cannot be with you anymore because of his family problems?........saying that his mother wanna girl from his own family side?....... and yet after break off you found that he mingles and having affair with another girl that TOTALLY are not from his family side?.........isn't the reasons and excuses that he give you before is STUPID???........that pesky guy!

OMG........now mostly word that came out from my mouth are bad.......no,,let me say that it worst!...........i'm not the kind of girl that would saying words like that..........cause i feel that the fact that i saw just now, make thing that i have accepted before gone too far from my limits.........now i'm feel stupid cause have been fool by stupid man..........wooisshhhh!..........i need to take a deep breathe......until.......bubye!

Sunday, September 18, 2011

sudden thought


Sometimes in our days we probably would think about things that we wish to forget...........just like me thinking about him.........seeking for his progression from time to time even in a distant.......i wish i could forget,yet still i can't..........how hopeless i'm.............everyday i try to make myself happy as i can.........try to forget things that could rib out my attentions..........its like i'm carry a large load...........so painful in side...........but all this i should bear it.........as far as i could...

i feel thankful to Allah coz i was given with friends around me that support me and protecting me all the time............. with them, i could continue my life as usual............my love always been turn down by the man i really love.......many times even not so many........leave me n my love like throwing stones in the sea.......yet still my friends always there even i turn them down........that's make me really feel touch when think about them........now friends are everything for me.......

i wish not to believe in love for the time being.......keep reminding myself that love from man are nonsense.........coz i've been hurt by men for many times.........they think my love is nothing...........well, its okay for me now.........coz i know everything that happen in the world have its own reward.........now they are leaving me n hurt my feelings.........in the future who know's.......so, i'm retired from being in love!!


Monday, September 12, 2011

feel sorry

Assalamualaikum,

its beginning of new semester now.....well, its my 7th semester of course......counting days for my graduation....hahaha but this semester seems to be more difficult i guess, especially thinking about the lecturers whose going to teach me the whole semester........more challenges to be face upon the future.......hope i got some helps or miracles to overcome those difficulties.......(-_-!)

i have some so call desire or goals this semester........since i'm single now and hoping for no more......well, thinking about that back to times its like i always have love problems........probeably countless of them.....yeah, i wish to say 'LOVE IS SICKENING'.......hahahahaha guys always poke my feelings though they are not really want 'love'......i call that STUPID.....;p

i'm now hopefully wanna focus about my career.......my future of course........no BOYS are allowed inside my mind.........talking about da future its seem so wide.......its like i wanna do everything.......one of my goal is to be the best among the guys who have left me.....cause i swear to make them feel sorry for leaving me.......sound like devil isn't it?.........let just keep that in my mind....hahahaha so, pray for my success and pray for your success too....(^_^)

see you all later.....;)

Saturday, September 10, 2011

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

Assalamualaikum, selamt hari raya aidilfitri dan maaf zahir batin saya ucapkan wat sume ye.....sory lme da xupdate blog....hehehe anyway, mane kueh raya korg sume???.....sy nk rasa ckit....nk bg byk pun xpe.....(^_^)

stay tune for my other post okey....see u all later...daaa~



Thursday, June 23, 2011

berhabuk

hai everyone....
its been a long time since my last post
my blog turn dusty
well...its not that i dont wanna post
but too busy to do so
huhuhuhu......(^_^)

see ya next time....

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

ICORE-2011

Its been a while since my last post....well,its not i'm busy though i'm on some works....but i didn't have internet access...that why...now i'm just come back from kuching.....after attending the ICORE-2011.......which stand for 'International Conference of Rural Development & Economic'........well,its not really interesting yet i just go on behalf of my dad......not much pixca to show.....just a little.....there u go...;p


ni mse g tmn botani semenggoh


ade org utan kat blkg tu.....takutt...;p


welcome.....welcome...;p


ni time dinner.....dok semeja ngn senior lecturer2
dr sri lanka....hahahhahaha


nmpk gemok pulak pakai bj ni...kikiki


well, thats all to share.....see u later...(^_^)



Thursday, May 26, 2011

just recovered

(^_^) starting the day with a smile.........its been awhile since my last post.........its not that i dont wanna post but too much works for me to settle down..........plus got fever+flu.......thats really the worst thing........coz if both of them attack together, i'll be in trouble coz my asthma will visit me anytime...soo, better not to involve myself in trouble.......yet i still lazy to take any medicine....hohoho

well, i'll go to work at 8a.m after diz....soo doesn't have much time to potpet now.......need to prepare for works......to the person that i miss a lot, do your best at your work okey.....miss u soo much.....i'm sorry coz didn't message u lately........u pun xde plak nk msj2 i...adoyai

see u all next time....(^_^)

Monday, May 16, 2011

i still cant make my own decision

hai........its been awhile since my last post i guest.........today i'm kind of tired a bit coz working during the day.........after maghrib pray, i having a chit chat with my appa n omma...........i was talking about having short courses in kolej komuniti...........then appa babbling at mesaying that kind of courses is not for me..........n so on.....

the chit chat starting to change like its going to be a quarrel....then i realize......its better for me to be silence........soo i silence till the end..........till my appa stop talking........its not that i dont understand him.......its just that i wanna try n wisg to make my own decision..........i really wanna do that.........coz what i do from the beginning until now is follow what ever my parents desicions is..........i still remember till now....

during my 3rd grade........i n 2 of my friend had been chosen to what they soo call 'melangkau' coz i pass the PTS examination...........i still remember that time..........i'm just 9 years old girl, need to sign the form of confirmation regarding to the offer......i really dont want to 'melangkau'......coz i will leave my dear friend that same age as me........n i need to be with students that older than me........but my parents forcing me to sign it with my eyes crying.......its was so sad when i recall that memory back.........

during my form 3, my parents ask me to change school..........n again......i cant make my own decision..........i dont want too coz i really love that school.......i feel comfort with it....but coz i always have health problems, the want me to transfer..........that also a sad moment.......if time cant be repeated, i dont wanna change my school at that time.....well, that is the past, what else can i say.....huhuhu

after the SPM, i got 2 offer to continue my study.......1st is the accounting matriculation in kmpk....2nd is the economic foundation in UIAM.......i wanna choose the uiam coz that i really aim for.......n i dont know whats wrong.........my dad force me to choose the 1st offer..........as the reason is because he want me to finish early.........well, that me who gonna go for study not him.....why cant i choose for my self????.......coz he is my dad, so i just follow him.......

when i wanna further my degree, i wanna take a course that i like.......because i like to cook, so i wanna choose a course that related to it as example the culinary.........BUT.......my dad against me........he want me to take a business@entrepreneurship course..........n that is what i take now.......degree in entrepreneurship..........there a time when i'm tension with my study, i feel like i wanna stop study.........coz i feel like this is not my choices.......everything that i do do is for my parents....for my dad......

i have register for a short courses in a college but my dad dont want me to go there coz he want me to attend a seminar...........ish why cant i make my own decision??.....oo daddy......dont make me like this.....coz it will become my habit to always depend on your decision........i'm know that i'm still young.....but cant you at least give me opportunity to make my own decision???

i maybe can be patient for this........but if it comes to the part of choosing my life partner, i'm sorry dad...that is the last thing that i will not follow........i can follow everything you wanna me to....but not about my life partner..............syukur, till now he still dont ask anything about that.........i wish there will be no enforcement from my dad about that.......

#am i that bad????

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

perang perasaan

akhirnya dpt jgk sy update blog ni.........sory ya blog, guwe kesibukan ngn krja2 opis+krje2 di rmh ni.........hadoi siang jd org pjbt, mlm jd cam bibik seyh!.....klu laa bdn sy ni bleh dibelah2, dh lme sy belah....;p well, even penat sekurg2nye aku dpt habis kn mse yg ade ni.........n dpt ketepikn seketika peperangan dlm jiwa ni......ceyh,jiwang plak bunyi nye...keh3

sy sgt merindui dia skrg.....tp sy xtau nk wat cmne........dia sgt jaoh dr sy....malah semakin menjauhi sy.....ape sy nk buat??..........sy tau sy xbleh mgharapkn ape2 ag..........coz everything is over...........perasaan yg s smpn dlm kotak hati sgt laa sarat............hadoi can anybody help me??.,.....anyone????.........do you have ideas????

sy prnh brperasaan mcm ni sblm ni.........but still, sy xdpt membendung perasaan ni.........knpe laa ngn sy ni.....hmmm

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Renungan..."betapa wanita begitu berharga"

Ketika Tuhan menciptakan wanita, malaikat datang dan bertanya,"Mengapa begitu lama engkau menciptakan wanita, Tuhan?"

Tuhan menjawab,"Sudahkah engkau melihat setiap detail yang telah aku ciptakan untuk wanita?" Lihatlah dua tangannya mampu menjaga banyak anak pada saat bersamaan, punya pelukan yang dapat menyembuhkan sakit hati dan kerisauan, dan semua itu hanya dengan dua tangan".

Malaikat menjawab dan takjub,"Hanya dengan dua tangan? tidak mungkin!

Tuhan menjawab,"Tidakkah kau tahu, dia juga mampu menyembuhkan dirinya sendiri dan boleh bekerja 18 jam sehari".

Malaikat mendekati dan mengamati wanita tersebut dan bertanya,"Tuhan, kenapa wanita terlihat begitu lelah dan rapuh seolah-olah terlalu banyak beban baginya?"

Tuhan menjawab,"Itu tidak seperti apa yang kau bayangkan, itu adalah air mata."

"Untuk apa?", tanya malaikat.

Tuhan melanjutkan,"Air mata adalah salah satu cara dia menunjukkan kegembiraan,kerisauan,cinta,kesepian, penderitaan,dan kebanggaan,serta wanita ini mempunyai kekuatan mempesona lelaki,ini hanya beberapa kemampuan yang dimiliki oleh wanita.

Dia dapat mengatasi beban lebih baik dari lelaki,dia mampu menyimpan kebahagiaan dan pendapatnya sendiri,dia mampu tersenyum ketika hatinya menjerit kesedihan,mampu menyanyi ketika menangis, menangis saat terharu,bahkan tertawa ketika ketakutan.

Dia berkorban demi orang yang dicintainya,dia mampu berdiri melawan ketidakadilan,dia menangis saat melihat anaknya adalah pemenang,dia gembira dan bersorak saat kawannya tertawa bahagia,dia begitu bahagia mendengar suara kelahiran.

Dia begitu bersedih mendengar berita kesakitan dan kematian,tapi dia mampu mengatasinya.Dia tahu bahwa sebuah ciuman dan pelukan dapat menyembuhkan luka.

Allah S.W.T berfirman:

"Ketika Aku menciptakan seorang wanita, ia diharuskan untuk menjadi seorang yang istimewa. Aku membuat bahunya cukup kuat untuk menopang dunia, namun, harus cukup lembut untuk memberikan kenyamanan."

"Aku memberikannya kekuatan dari dalam untuk mampu melahirkan anak dan menerima penolakan yang seringkali datang dari anak-anaknya. "

"Aku memberinya kekerasan untuk membuatnya tetap tegar ketika orang-orang lain menyerah, dan mengasuh keluarganya dengan penderitaan dan kelelahan tanpa mengeluh."

"Aku memberinya kepekaan untuk mencintai anak-anaknya dalam setiap keadaan, bahkan ketika anaknya bersikap sangat menyakiti hatinya."

"Aku memberinya kekuatan untuk menyokong suaminya dalam kegagalannya dan melengkapi dengan tulang rusuk suaminya untuk melindungi hatinya."

"Aku memberinya kebijaksanaan untuk mengetahui bahwa seorang suami yang baik takkan pernah menyakiti isterinya, tetapi kadang menguji kekuatannya dan ketetapan hatinya untuk berada disisi suaminya tanpa ragu."

"Dan akhirnya, Aku memberinya air mata untuk dititiskan. Ini adalah khusus miliknya untuk digunakan bilapun ia perlukan."

"Kecantikan seorang wanita bukanlah dari pakaian yang dikenakannya,sosok yang ia tampilkan, atau bagaimana ia menyisir rambutnya.Kecantikan seorang wanita harus dilihat dari matanya, kerana itulah pintu hatinya, tempat dimana cinta itu ada."

CINTANYA TANPA SYARAT. HANYA ADA SATU YANG KURANG DARI WANITA,DIA SELALU LUPA BETAPA BERHARGANYA DIA..."


.....oleh itu, hargailah wanita yang anda cintai......

Saturday, April 30, 2011

going home tomorrow

tomorrow will be my flight going home...........i dont know why..........i doesn't seem to be soo excited to go back home..........i dont know why.........its like my mind n heart is empty..........it feels like it doesn't matter whether going home@not..........going home with him..........n that my only chance to be near to him.........coz i know......after diz, we will be a part..............he will never want to go out with me again.........what a pain that i have to bare.......

omma n appa..........i'm coming home tomorrow............hope all of u will be happy..........i know i'm not such a good daughter in da family.............always bring troublesome to both of you......i hope bang long also could be happy for me...........as a brother, i know i always make him headache with me..........coz i have a fren who dizzy thinking about the siblings problems.........seeing my fren like that, now i know bang long also could be like that as i always bring the problems to da family.........

sorry coz being such bad daughter among all...........making u guys all worried about me n my behavior..........i know, i done bad things behind u all..........like a wild girl..........i'm really sorry.........that makes me sometimes guilty to go back home.........coz i'm afraid that i'll bring other problems..........making u guys worried again n again..........hmmmmm

Thursday, April 28, 2011

penghargaan buat teman2


assalamualaikum.......post kali ni dedikasi buat teman2 ku yg selama ini telah berjuang bersama ku........

wlupn seharusnya lepas exam aku berasa gembira kerana bebas dr tekanan study, tp hakikat nya aku ditimpa kesengsaraan jiwa n perasaan akibat putus cinta.........mmg ramai yg kata, pts cinta je kot........bg org lain mgkn ini perkara kecil, tp tidak bg aku.............pd aku cinta bkn stkt mainan perasaan, tp lebih dr tu.............cinta adalah satu kehidupan.........perkara yg plg indah di dunia adlh cinta, n perkara yg plg menyakitkan di dunia juga adlh cinta............

sesetengah org mgkn bleh melupakan cinta nya begitu saja..........lain org lain cara nya.............bgtu juga dgn diriku...........bkn mudah utk aku melupakn sebuah cinta...........sepjg bbrpa hr ni aku kemurungan, kesedihan, rs mcm merana sgt2............aku hmpir lupa diri aku yg sbnr..........hmpir hanyut dlm arus kesedihan............tp kwn2 aku dtg menyelamatkn aku dr trus hanyut dlm arus ini...........

mse aku sdg hangat brcinta......aku jrg kuar ngn korg..........jrg spend mse lepak2 ngn korg..........msti korg terasa hti ngn aku.......tp ble aku ditinggalkn mcm ni.......jatuh smpai xmampu bangun sndri........korg dtg tolg angkatkn aku.........saat2 aku menangis, korg dtg lapkn air mata aku yg dh mcm air terjun........korg wat lawak ble aku muram, wlupn aku xketawa ckit pun malahan brtmbh2 nangis, korg ttp gak wat lawak tu.........

korg bg smgt kat aku.......nasihat mcm2 lg..........hr2 aku kne dgr khutbah cinta dr korg sume...........huhuhu wlupn pd mula nya amat pyh utk aku menerima hakikat yg brlaku............tp disebabkn da kne bsuh otak ni hr2, aku sedikit sebyk bleh menerima kenyataan yg aku telah ditinggalkn...........mmg pedih sgt2 aku rs.............smpaikn aku menangis kat court futsal tu xmalu2 ag da..........nsb baik kuar air mata je, klu kuar bunyi wat malu aku je...........

buat abang2 n akak2 sekuliah sekalian, trime ksh byk2..............korg g sane cni, aku ikt jgk...........blik pg2 buta pun aku ikt jgk.............nsb ade korg sume jaga aku spjg mse ni.............klu xde korg, ntah apelah jd ngn aku.................mgkn aku akn wat perkara yg bodoh n yg xsepatut nye.........trime ksh tmnkn aku pg mkn, tmnkn aku pg bli brg, tmnkn aku g jln2...............klu korg xde, sume nye aku kne g sndri sorg2.........tmbh ag ngn jiwa trluka ntah apelah akn aku buat........

korg sume da mcm abang long n kak ngah aku kat rmh tu..........sume ni aku xdpt pun kat rmh.........mgkn sbb dieorg anggap aku msh kcik, n xtau ape itu cinta............jd dieorg xdedahkn kat aku pun..........n mgkn dieorg xde pengalaman mcm aku ni..........dgn pengalaman yg korg sume ade, n korg ceritakan kat aku..........aku rs betapa dunia ni luas...........rs mcm xnk balik.........klu balik aku xdpt pengalaman yg aku ade skrg.........(^_^)

mgkn sbb tu aku ni lmbt nk matured.........hehehe ape2 pun trime ksh kat korg sume..........kerana mengajar aku jd matured........jgn ajar aku plik2 tau........siap arr korg....kikikiki xlme ag nk abs dh.........aku msti rndu kat akak2 n abg2 ni sume..........kdg2 aku rs ade hikmah nye jgk ble aku jd stdnt plg muda dlm kuliah............n aku sgt bgga ade kengkawan yg prihatin yg dh jd mcm kakak n abang pd aku.........

aku rs da pnat da dgn cinta...........sbb da brkali2 aku dikecewakn oleh cinta........tinggalkn oleh org yg sgt aku cintai.............sbnr nye aku da set dlm mind aku n hti aku..........andai aku jth cinta lagi slps dikecewakn dlu, aku akn jd kn ia sbg yg terakhir dlm hidup aku.........aku akn setia hanya pd die je...........n menyayangi die je.........tp aku sgt xsgka, prkra yg same trjadi lg...........aku dikecewakn n ditinggalkn oleh cinta...........mgkn sbb tu kali ni aku terasa sgt2 sedih n kecewa.......smpaikn aku xbleh nk terima hakikat yg sbnr..........

mgkn mse nye da tiba..........utk aku berubah mnjd diri aku yg lain..........bkn diri aku yg skrg.......aku nk ttp pntu hti aku serapat2nya..........sbb klu ia renggang, mudah utk aku buka peluang utk org msok n akhir nye aku jgk yg akn dikecewakn.........aku nk melupakn erti cinta........mgkn aku akn cmburu melihat org lain@melihat die bhgia brsama org lain..........tp aku tau n sedar aku kne terima hakikat tu.,......aku kne jd seorg yg kuat terutama hati aku ni yg sgt lmh lmbik.......

aku tau sume ni akn memakan mse..........die....mane mgkn utk aku lupakn........aku tau hati aku yg sbnr, n aku xmampu menipu diri sndri.........memang....smpai skrg aku msh sgt syg kn die........cintakn die......n trsgt rndu akn dirinya........tentang die pulak??......aku xtau adakah die juga msh mempunyai rs sprti yg aku rs.........mgkn ya@mgkn tidak...hanya die je yg tahu.........

tentang perasaan ni........aku nk smpn baik2 dlm kotak hti aku.........sbb aku tau ape yg aku dh set sblm ni...........wlupn pengakhiran nye adalah perpisahan, aku nk smpn perasaan ini.........jodoh prtemuan ditangan Allah........kte hanya merancang, Allah yg menentukn...........ckup laa ini yg terakhir buat ku...........yg lain aku serah kn pd Allah........klu mmg jodoh kteorg, pasti akn brsatu jgk nnt......

skrg aku nk tmpukn dgn krjaya aku...........aku harus menyibukn diri aku dgn krje.........kerja akn membntu aku utk mengalihkn fikiran aku drpd brfikir ttg kekecewaan n luka yg aku alami............biarlah otak aku n fizikal aku pnat dgn krje drpd penat memikirkn ttg cinta yg xkesampaian..........sekurg2 nye krjaya akn memberikn aku pulangan........smga setiap ape yg aku krja kn akn diberkati............

skali lagi trime ksh wat kengkawan ye.........wlupn blik lmbt smpai pg, korg ttp jga aku ngn baik........bak kate korg, "tu br dewasa namanya....hahaha"...........bengong laaa.....;p nnt sem dpn jmpe ag tau kne plan btol2 utk alumni kte nnt.........adioszz(^_^)

Sunday, April 24, 2011

love sick!!!


when i miss you, i close my eyes and i can see that person better
i try to forget and erase, but i get reminded of that person more
i told myself a lie thinking that that person would come back
that person never said that he will be coming back, but all i can do is wait

the sin of loving that person a lot, the sin of loving you a lot
because of you, and because of sin, im sick of waiting
the sin of loving you more, the sin of missing you a lot
because of you, and because of sin, im crying with pain..like this

i told myself a lie thinking that that person would come back
that person never said that he will be coming back, but all i can do is wait

the sin of loving that person a lot, the sin of loving you a lot
because of you, and because of sin, im sick of waiting
the sin of loving you more, the sin of missing you a lot
because of you, and because of sin, im crying with pain..

breaking up is fast, but forgetting is hard
the love is painful, and i am hurt alone

did you have to leave that far away from me?
did you have to leave that far away from me?
i shouldve loved you with all my life, but you forgot me now like a heartless person
i should have loved you with my all, but now you live forgetting me

with all my life, the person that i love
that person only gave me tears and left
the tough love which i was hurt alone

the sin of loving you more, the sin of missing you a lot
because of you, and because of sin, im crying with pain..like this

everything is over now

i wish i could say..............i but cant............bg menjaga hati pihak yg lain.............aku hanya mampu berdiam...........menerima seadanya.............skt nye................xde sape yg faham.............i don't wanna be in this world again.........love always making fun of me..........as always.............i don't wanna trust love anymore.............coz i was born to be hurt by other with the thing so called love............

now everything is fake.........my fake smile......my fake laugh........i do it coz i don't wanna make my friends worried about me...........i don't know how to face this things........is't coz i always be patient that why people always leave me behind when they get bored?............its true when some people say..........the person that will hurt you the most, is the person that you love most.....

Thursday, April 21, 2011

seandainya lelaki tahu....~sebenarnyerr~



Andainya lelaki tahu.....
Apabila seorang perempuan jatuh cinta
lelaki itu tidak semestinya punya segalanya
tetapi lelaki itu adalah segalanya di hatinya.

Andainya lelaki tahu......
Apabila seorang perempuan itu mengalirkan air mata
itu bukan bermakna dia lemah
tetapi dia sedang mencari kekuatan
untuk terus tabah menyintai lelaki itu.

Andai lelaki tahu......
Apabila seorang perempuan marah
memang dia tidak mampu mengawal perasaannya
tapi percayalah, itulah maknanya
dia sangat mengambil berat dan menyayangi lelaki itu.

Lihat saja pasangan yang baru bercinta, mereka jarang bergaduh
tetapi percayalah semakin bertambah sayang mereka pada seseorang
semakin banyak pula pertelingkahan yang berlaku.

Andainya lelaki tahu.....
Apabila perempuan bercakap banyak
dia tidak pernah bermaksud untuk membuat anda rimas
tapi dia mahu lelaki mengenalinya dengan lebih dekat.

Andainya lelaki tahu.....
Apabila perempuan berkata dia mahu anda berubah
itu bukan bermakna dia tidak mahu menerima anda seadanya
tetapi dia mahu menjadikan anda lebih baik
bukan untuk dirinya
tetapi untuk masa depan anda.

Andai lelaki tahu......
Apabila perempuan cemburu dan tidak percayakan anda
bukan bermakna dia tidak sayang
tetapi dia terlalu sayangkan anda
dan masih menganggap anda masih kecil
yang masih memerlukan sepenuh perhatian.

Kadang2 dia terlalu risau sekiranya terlalu percaya
anda akan mengkhianati kepercayaan yang diberi
naluri keibuannya sangat kuat
dia hanya mahukan yang terbaik untuk anda.

Andai lelaki tahu......
Apabila perempuan merajuk
jangan kata dia mengada-ngada
dia bukan mahu dipujuk dengan wang ringgit
atau hadiah sedozen
tetapi cukup dengan perhatian
yang boleh buat perempuan rasa dihargai.

Andai lelaki tahu......
Apabila perempuan jarang mengatakan 'i love u'
itu tidak bermaksud dia tidak menyintai
tetapi dia mahu lelaki itu merasai sendiri cintanya
bukan hanya hadir dari kata-kata
tetapi juga melalui habasa tubuhnya.

Andai lelaki tahu.....
Apabila perempuan kata dia rindu sama kamu
dia benar-benar meksudkannya
apabila berjauhan, bayanganmu akan sentiasa bermain di mata.

Andai lelaki tahu....
Apabila perempuan kata lelaki lain itu lebih baik dari kamu
jangan percaya kata-katanya
kerana dia hanya mahu menguji kamu
dia mahu lihat sejauh mana kamu sanggup menjadi yang terbaik di matanya
walaupun sebenarnya memang kamulah yang terbaik di hatinya.

Selagi dia dengan kamu, percayalah....
walaupun perempuan menganggap masih ramai lagi yang lebih baik di matanya
tetapi di hatinya, kamu tetap yang terbaik.

Andai lelaki tahu.......
Apabila perempuan menjadi degil
dia bukan bermaksud untuk menjadi degil
tapi dia mahu melihat
sejauh mana lelaki itu mampu bersabar dengan kerenahnya.

Percayalah, hati perempuan itu sangat lembut
Andai kena caranya
jangan terkejut kalau akhirnya dia menukar fikirannya dalam masa sesaat.

Andai lelaki tahu....
Apabila perempuan berkata
"tolong tinggalkan saya"
dia tidak bermaksud menyuryuh anda pergi selamanya
dia hanya mahu menenangkan fikirannya sebentar saja.

Apabila dia kembali tenang
percayalah dia akan emncari anda semula
itu tandanya dia benar-benar menyintai anda
perempuan sukar untuk mengawal perasaan
dia terlalu emosional
tapi dialah yang paling menyayangi anda
dan sangat sensitif dengan perubahan pada diri anda.

Andai lelaki tahu......
Sememangnya Allah mencipatakan perbezaan lelaki dan perempuan itu
dengan perbezaan tersendiri
tetapi sekiranya mereka saling memahami
mereka akan saling melengkapi dan penyempurnakan.

Perempuan itu diciptakan oleh Allah indah sekali
disebalik air matanya
tersimpan seribu satu kekuatan
yang bakal menjadikan seorang lelaki itu merasa selamat bersamanya.

Biarpun zahirnya perempuan itu tampak lemah
tapi dia punya kekuatan tersendiri
yang mampu menggoncang dunia
dan mungkin mampu pula membuat lelaki menjadi lemah kerananya.

Jadi hargailah kehadiran seorang perempuan dalam hidup anda
kerana dia didatangkan bukan dengan kelemahan sahaja
tetapi dia juga ada kekuatan untuk menyokong anda
dan membuatkan hidup anda lebih sempurna.

Dialah yang bakal menjadi perempuan bekerjaya, isteri juga ibu
yang terbaik untuk anak2 anda.



sumber : blog syeragh

wanna know 2 : masalah 'kaki makan'

setelah membaca surat khabar lama.....sy trbaca article ni.....saje nk share2 sbb tgh boring ni dok kat rmh....hhuhuhu

memiliki bentuk badan menarik sememangnya diidamkan oleh setiap insan. Namun masalah perut buncit merupakan satu perkara perlu dielakkan lebih - lebih lagi bagi anda yang 'kaki makan'..(mcm sy laa tu)....hehehe Jadi amalkan tips ini:

1) Minum bayak air
Perut penuh disebabkan penyimpanan air, kurangkan masalah tersebut dengan minum lebih banyak air. Ia akan mencairkan kosentrasi sodium dalam tubuh dan meningkatkan pengeluaran air dari sistem perkumuhan.

2) Makan perlahan-lahan
Amalkan makan dengan cara duduk dan kunyah makanan dengan perlahan. Makanan yang tidak dikunyah dengan betul, tidak dapat dicerna dan menimbulkan banyak gas.

3) Kurangkan garam
Terlalu banayk garam hanya akan menambahkan lagi sodium dalam tubuh dan melambatkan pengeluaran air keluar dari sel. Akibatnya, perut terasa penuh dan buncit.

4) Elak sembelit
Untuk merangsang isi perut, tingkatkan pengambilan makanan berserat seperti buah-buahan dan sayur-sayuran.

5) Senaman
Senaman atau melakukan sedikt aktiviti olahraga akan membantu menggerakkan cairan dalam perut dan keluar sebagai peluh atau dibawa ke hempedu untuk keluar sebagai air kencing.



....sekian tips untuk hr ni....(^_^)

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

exam day 4 & 5 : retail&techno

ehem3....disebabkan sibuk mengajar kwn2 utk 2 paper terakhir, sy jd xsmpt nk update blog.......skrg da abs exam da..ske nyerrrr!!!!


exam day 4 : pengurusan peruncitan & francais

exam ni bleh thn mencabar jgk nk menjawab nye........tp sdey laaaa..........xsmpt nk jwb abs..........10mrkh kompom2 da hlg..........sbb xsmpt nk jwb nye pasal laaa ni......skt hti ble ingt balik...... 2 3 kali tmbh krts pun xsmpt nk abs kn.....xprnh2 jwb smpai 15 page......tu xtrmsok soklan yg xsmpt nk jwb ag tu......skln yg xsmpt nk jwb tu mmg xtau lgsg jwpn nye.....klu nk goreng jwpn tu bleh je guna imaginasi(as usual.....hehehe) tp mmg xsmpt....klu laa die bg mse tmbhn 15min, agak nye smpt laaa siap kot.....sdg kn org main bola pun ade mse tmbhn, nape laa exam xde........huhuuhu


exam day 5 : keusahawanan teknologi

ptg td br je elesai paper yg terakhir............kali ni smpt siap wlupn perenggan terakhir tu xsmpai 5 baris.....sadis btol laaa.......huhuhuhu kali ni pun geram.......sy tau jwpn utk skln tu.......skln2 yg sy jwb tu mmg yg sy trget jd sy tau laa jwpn nye........mslh kali ni plak xtau mcm mane nk explain jwpn tu......dh laaa nk explain pun pening, tercarik2 plak cnth nye.......mmg pening arr......sbb nk yg berkaitan ngn teknologi tu.....sy ni plak xpeka pun psal teknologi2 ni........hadoyai2 tp xpelah, berserah je laaa skrg....sbb exam pun da abs.......~the end~



skrg mse utk enjoy stlh lme menahan diri dr meng'enjoy'kan hidup ni....hahahahaa nk wat pe ekk........movie??......ronda2????.......window shopping????..........g picnic????.........xtau nk buat ape.........yg pntg kte tdo dlu ye....hehehehe daaaa~~


Sunday, April 17, 2011

rahsia diriku

hari ni sy nk bercakap ttg rahsia diri sy.....hahaha mcm laa rahsia sgt2.....;p ni berkaitan dgn wrne kegemaran sy, tarikh lahir sy n sebagai nye........sy sgt2 ske wrne biru wlupn skrg mcm nk trsuke kat hijau namun wne biru tetap dihati sy.....go blue!! hahaha

BIRU
Setia pada pasangan, pandai menyimpan wang, kuat kemahuan, suka berterus-terang, jujur, cekap memberi maaf dan tegas.

Warna ini melambangkan ketenangan yang sempurna. Mempunyai kesan menenangkan pada tekanan darah, denyutan nadi, dan tarikan nafas.

Biru tua
Warna ini melambangkan perasaan yang mendalam.
Sifat : konsentrasi, kooperatif, caedas, kejujuran dan patriotik
Pengaruhnya : tenang, bijaksana, tidak mudah tersinggung, ramai kawan

Biru muda
Warna ini melambangkan kesungguhan cita-cita dan penuh keazaman.
Sifatnya : bertahan, pelindung, tidak berubah fikiran
Pengaruhnya : keras kepala, teguh, sering bangga diri, berpendirian tetap

Jika anda suka warna biru (sy sgt menyukainya), anda tergolong sebagai pemurung( oh!..yeke??) dan selalu bertindak pasif dalam banyak hal. Anda selalu mendapat kesulitan dalam pergaulan. Begitu juga dalam bercinta kerana anda lebih cenderung menyembunyikan perasaan.

Mengikut perngiraan tarikh lahir, sy kira-kira dapat no. 4.........no.4 mewakili unsur kayu.....no.4 jugak adalah org yg KONSEVATIF...

Konsevatif
- golongan ini sgt peka n traditional
-mereka sukakan arahan n sesuatu yg rutin
-mereka hanya bertindak apabila faham sepenuhnya tentang apa yg patut mereka lakukan
-mereka suka bkrja keras n bersungguh2 melakukan sesuatu krja secara bersendirian
- mereka mudah trtarik dgn aktvt luar & merasai prtalian alam sekitar
-mereka berupaya utk brsabar, tekun & adakalanya dianggap degil
-mereka harus bljr utk lbih flexsibel & brsikap lbih baik trhadap diri sndri

~ WANITA AIR ~

Wanita air terdiri daripada mereka yang lahir di bawah zodiak Cancer(22 Jun-23 Julai), Scorpio(24 Oktober-22 November) dan Pisces(20 Februari-20 Mac).

*Mempunyai sifat semulajadi untuk berkembang maju.
*Mereka ini dipandu oleh perasaan hati dan mempunyai sifat mudah bersimpati, berdaya imaginatif, sentimental, mempunyai perasaan yang berubah-ubah dan berhati-hati.
*Tenang dan mudah tersentuh oleh emosi orang-orang yang berada disekeliling dan cepat mengeluarkan air mata dalam sebarang situasi yang menyedihkan.
*Mudah mengikut rentak emosi orang lain dan juga diri sendiri.

Wanita berunsurkan Air
Air sifatnya bersih dan suci, sejuk, nyaman serta menghilangkan dahaga. Air juga sifatnya mencambahkan benih, menyuburkan serta menyegarkan. Wanita bersifat air mempunyai ciri-ciri seperti berikut:

* Menghidupkan hati suami menjadikan suami sentiasa bersemangat.
* Mengambil berat tentang suami dan kebajikan anak-anak serta tidak membiarkan anak-anak hanyut dibawa arus hidup.
* Hatinya bersih serta boleh membahagiakan suami dan anak-anak.
* Menenangkan hati suami bila si suami menghadapi masalah.
*Sangat romantis
*Mudah menangis


haaa...cukup la tu kot.......agak2 same tak ngn personaliti sy???


Friday, April 15, 2011

loving myself first

its been awhile now since the last time i meet him........i feel soo happy coz i'm able to see him today........soooooo haaappppppppppppppyyyyyyyyyyy.....hehehe to see his smile, his cute face........to hear his laugh again.......makes me charmed...(^_^)

seeing all thing like that makes me decide about something........i've thinking about it lately......thinking very deep about it.......i decide to let the problems stay behind me.....i need to love my self first before i love someone else......that's what a friend of mine teach me about.....

meeting a mate is in the hands of god......we as human have no power on it.......but we can make efforts on it.......meeting with him is my fate......fall in love with him is my destiny.......but the future no one knows all about it except for Allah......so what happen after this is other things......

of course i'm hoping to be with him forever.......but i not gonna push it all in that way.....if Allah allow me to, n if there is jodoh, everything will be as it will be......its up to Allah now to decide what is good for me.......i feel that i have do what i should do.....

from now on i'm not gonna push things and make other pressure about me......i lets it flow as what it should be......n it doesn't mean that i'm leaving him.......i'll always be there if he needs me.......coz i really love him soo much.....miss him soo much.......n that feeling of mine, i'll keep it in my heart......

i'll not talk about it everyday anymore......its enough now that only me know how i really feels about him......its enough that i know i love him n he loves me too......if that feelings is really mean to be for us, we can feel it each other without saying any words......

i wanna be matured now......dont wanna act rashly anymore.......i learn that things always need times even though times never waiting for us......jika dia memang jodoh sy, walau ape2 pun yg terjadi, wlupn trpisah jaoh mane skali pun, Allah psti akn satukn sy dgn die jgk....jika die bkn jodoh sy, sy serah kn sje semuanya pd Allah......

i would like to thanks to all my friends that have help me to proceed with my life........without them maybe i could control myself of course.......i could set aside my problems n my sadness for awhile because of them...........even i'm not telling them the problems that i face, they could see it through my actions........they even accompany me n always be there when i need them......thanks a lot to MAMA, ATEMA, HANA, SEHA n FATHIN for making my life more meaningful.....go GURLZ power!!!......hahahaha


Thursday, April 14, 2011

sorroful day 3: hypocrisy

the sadness inside me still there even if i try to forget about it......... I've try but i still can't......each nite i'm crying n crying till i fall as sleep........the next morning i'll get headache with my eyes red n shrinking..........i call my old best fren to express my feeling of sad coz it like burdening my soul.......she teach me about being hypocrite to my own self.......juz pretend to be happy in front others.......pretend there's nothing happen in my life............pretend to be there nothing to worry about........be a HYPOCRITE person gurl!

i'm trying my best to be that..........even though its really hard for me to do it.........i feel like i'm lying to myself as in the mean time i know my heart is really2 hurt..........i saw him going out with other girl just the two of them, even that girl is his classmate........of course i'm jealous.......coz i walkout ALONE at that time........but my tongue just couldn't say anything........it juz silence.......even my deep inside my heart i'm crying soo hard..........how could he do that to me?.......why he kept giving me difficult test like diz?........keep hurting my feeling willfully?

now i'm lying to myself........telling my self nothing is happen........nothing to worry about.........nothing to be sad about..........even my heart is bleeding..........i smile even its soo sad inside.........i laugh even its soo pain inside...........waaaaAAAAAA..........ITS REALLY HURT BEING A HYPOCRITE............now i'm crying again........shit!




Wednesday, April 13, 2011

sorrowful day 2 : being left alone

now my heart feel really hurt........as if it will break a part...........how come its easily for him to say like that...........'i cant make your day happy from now on, that why i left you'.............as easy as that.........doesn't our love before mean anything to him?........if so then why its easily for him to say like that?........if before he can make my day so sweet and happy, then why not now?

man always like that........if they want, they will get to us.......if they doesn't want anymore, they left us just like that........its like we are not valuable to them anymore.........why are men like that?????........oohhh, its really hurt now.......how far can i bare this kind of feeling?.......its hurt even more now........he have forget our days before........he forget about his sweet talk........he forget everything that he says when he was happy with me.......

its has been the third time now.........i wanna cry..........n wanna cry even more..........i feel like wanna shout to the world........why do thing like this happen to me?.......n it has been the third time now.......am i not eligible to fall in love n being in love?.......love always making fun of me..........come when i'm sad....making me happy.......n left me when i'm happy......n make me sad.....again n again.........

i hate being like diz......played by feelings.........stop making fun of me ok!!........i hate it.......i'm a humankind..........i have feelings........i have heart........i know the meaning of sadness..........i know the feeling to be left alone.........u said that u will never leave.........coz other people always leaving u..........now ur eating ur own words.........u leaving me now...........n what is THAT?.....are u a humankind or not........dont u have any feelings???

now i have to bare the sadness again n again n again..........the story keep circulating.......likes its will never be end......


Tuesday, April 12, 2011

exam day 3 : keusahawanan sosial

pg td exam keusahawanan sosial.......nk tau x, byk jgk skln past year yg kuar.....kteorg plak x expect yg past year tu akn ulang ag....hadoi geram btol....rs td jwb mcm gune common sense je.......xpelah,bnde da brlalu da.....mls nk pikir.....

yg lawak nye adi trtdo time exam........ble lecturer yg jga tu kejut kn, bleh xplak die xsdar...ssh btol nk kjut kn die....smpai dua org lecturer yg kejut kn..adi...adi....ngntok sgt2 ke?...kesian tgk die....ntah die abs ke x jawab td....ish2...ssh btol ble ade Albert Einstein ni.....hehehe

k lah, nk stdy retail plak.....ahad ni exam reatail...chaiyok3

Monday, April 11, 2011

exam day 2 : perancangan kewangan

hohoho.......hr ini trsgt lah teruk.........paper financial planning........skln die mmg gler punye SUSAH laaa........bikin kepala ni pusing2 je.......hadoi dlm 75 skln tu, yg sy btol2 tau jwpn die xsmpai sepuluh pun.........ape nk jd daaa.......yg lain tu ape ag........mmg ditembak hebat nye oleh senapang instinct sy.....ntah ape2 je jwb.......nsb je xbwk bom dadu........klu x, maybe da mcm org main jutaria je baling2 dadu........hohoho

menyedihkn lg, skt perut dtg plak da ditengah2 kegentingan memikirkn jwpn yg sbnr nye.........mmg kacau daun btol.....hlg kosentrasi nk pikir jwpn.......dh laaa jwpn mcm lbih kurg je....penat nk pk ape yg btol ape yg slh.......tkt sgt2 ni........dh laaa paper tu 100% depend dgn mrkh skln tu........klu dpt rndh abs laaa sume mrkh kene tarik jaoh.......pnat arr nk repeat klu mcm ni.....

bertawakal saje laa yg trmampu pd saat2 ni.......sbb bnde da berlalu da.......mane dpt nk ulang lagi.......skrg tgh stdy social entrepreneursip......hrap2 dpt laaa membntu ye.......slmt ulangkaji ye kengkawan2 sekalian.....(*_*)

Sunday, April 10, 2011

exam day 1 : keusahawanan strategik

hr ni td ade exam strategic entrepreneurship.........nsb dpt jwb sume cume ade skln yg xsmpt nk abs........smpt jwb separuh je........klu laaa die tmbh kn mse ckit je ag......rs nye dpt siap kot..........rs mcm nk pts je tgn td time menulis.........mcm xbrhnti2 je....mcm kereta api...tut tut

smpai pening kple buat exam tu.........ssh btol......ni pun tgh pening ag.....nsb da mkn ubt.......klu dpt dgr suara oppa ni seronok nye laa hai..........nk stdy tp kple trsgt laa pening....mata pun mcm xleh nk bukak besar2.........mkin sepet da ni.......sadis2.........esok ade exam final plak.......

k lah, sy nk g stdy dlu ye.......slmt ye sume......(^_^)

Saturday, April 9, 2011

sorrowful day 1 : Tears are falling


Tears are falling
It doesn't stop even if i wipe them away
You are flowing
Even if i try to erase you, it's embedded in me

You and the memories of you
I'll send it away in the wind
but because i'm a man, i laugh

I want to block the love's path
Cry and shout at you saying
That i had you
That you were my reason for living
Even if i miss you, i'll endure it
Because i have nothing else to give you
I'll send you away
Wishing for your happiness

I call your name
My heart cries out that one word
I swallow it with my tears
Even if i call, you're not here
My love, what should i do?
How could you leave without a word?
Even today, i'm hating you for abandoning me

I want to block the love's path
Cry and shout at you saying
That i had you
That you were my reason for living
Even if i miss you, i'll endure it
Because i have nothing else to give you
I'll send you away
Wishing for your happiness

Because I'm a fool that only looks for you
It’s ok, we loved before
we were happy before
although i would die
than to send you away
Even if i miss you, i'll endure it
Because i have nothing else to give you
I'll send you away
Wishing for your happiness


Friday, April 8, 2011

sila jgn baca-khas utk sy shja

post kali ni sekadar luahan hati sy saja.......sila jgn bc sbb mmg xinformative & xkn menarik minat anda utk tahu........tp klu nk bc jgk suke hti lah........seribu kemaafan diminta jika anda tidak berpuas hti dgn pembacaan post kali ni kerana ia sememang nye hanya luahan hti sy.....


ptg ni skali lg mcm smlm sgt2 pnas.....menyebabkn sy trpksa mndi......br lega rs bdn ble da mndi.....ntah knpe hr mood sy jd xbtol......kemalasan melanda diri .........sy sndri gagal mengawal diri drpd bermalas-malasan ni......fikirin sy trpikir 1 je.........sy nk sgt2 cntct die.......sgt2 nk tp sy xbrani.......sy tkt sy mengganggu die.......tkt nnt mkin brtambah ketensionan die........sy tau mggu stdy week ni n exam ni xelok jmpe slalu......nnt melalaikn.......tp sy cume lah manusia biase je......juga ade keinginan utk brjmpe dgn org trsyg.........tp perasaan tu sy thn je........

sy xnk kerana keinginan sy, sy mengganggu die.........sbb sy tau time ni fikiran die sgt2 trggu.....die ingin brsndrian........shgga hti die tenang.......sy hrap sgt2 die bleh melupakn mslh die buat smntra wktu n focus dgn stdy die..........betapa sy sgt2 merindui die........nk tau ttg die, nk brtye kaba die.......klu bleh sy nk menceriakn hari2 die.........tp sy xbrani......dlm wktu yg sgt tegang ni, kne brhati2.....sbb bnda yg kcik n simple pun bleh menyebabkn prgaduhan yg bsar.......so lbih baik sy mengelakkan diri drpd tu sume........

sy xtau mcm mane sy nk melepaskn rindu........stiap hr sy cube sedaya upaya menahan diri sy drpd cntct die......wlupn jaoh dlm sudut hti sy tersangat2 lah nk mghubungi die.........tgn sy sgt2 gatal nk pegang hp.......slalu nye sy akn taip msj tp xsend pun msj tu.....sbb dlm fkrn sy msti trlintas 'bleh xsy cntct die ek', 'agak2 nnt die mrh xekk', 'klu sy msj die rs2nye mengganggu die xekk'..........soo msj tu xtrsend2 n dideletekn bgtu shja........hr ni sy off kn hp sy sbg slh 1 cara sy nk thn diri sy ni.......klu xwat gni, nnt tgn sy ni gatal sgt2.......

facebook pun sy da deactivate kn.......tp ni sume utk smntra wktu je.......agak2 klu hti sy da dpt biasa kn diri nnt sy akn kmbli normal balik........lgpun bkn ade org nk cntct sy pun......ni stdy n exam week sume org sibuk stdy..........lgpun da boring da dgn facebook........hahahaha maaf laa ye pd kwn2 yg klu2 cube mghubungi sy tu tp xdpt.....korg jin2 laa dtg blik sy ye....ble lg korg nk dtg kn....lgpun bkn jaoh pun.....skali skala exercise laa dtg blik sy okey?......hehehehe

kpd die sy nk berpesan:

sy tau awk akn bc blog ni jgk suatu hr nnt......jd dgr baik2 ye........sy xtau ape yg bermain dlm fikiran awk tu.......sy nk sgt awk berkgsi mslh awk spy hti n jiwa awk xrs trtekan....kte ni sme2 manusia, ade had n batas nye......kte dilahirkn bkn utk hdup berseorangan.......kte diberi ibu bapa, adk - brdk, sdra mara n juga kwn2 dlm hdup kte.......kte sememang nye klu bleh xnk menyusahkn org lain n xnk menyerabutkn org lain dgn mslh kte......tp xsalah utk kte meluahkn pd seseorg yg kte prcya utk melegakan hti kte.....klu awk xnk luahkn dgn sy pun xpe, sy xpkse....awk bleh luahkn dgn kwn2 awk ke, jd xde laaa rs trbeban sgt dlm hti awk.......

mgkn klu skdr menceritakan mslh pd org lain xkn mampu menyelesaikan mslh tu.....tp sekurg2 nye ble kte meluahkn perasaan, kte akn rs sedikit kelegaan dlm hti kte n dpt melupakn nye buat smntra wktu......prcaya laa pd ape yg sy ckap ni......sbb sy juga prnh ade mslh jgk.......sy pun bkn laa seorg yg sempurna spt semua nya ada n mampu sy buat........selagi hti kte xmerasa lega n tenang, selagi itu laa fikiran kte xdpt nk memfocuskn kpd sesuatu yg lbih pntg drpd mslh yg kte fikirkn........sy doakn smga awk dpt mengatasi perasaan trtekan tu n mghadapi nya dgn tenang......sy yakin awk lbih matang dr sy n mampu fikirkn sesuatu dgn lbih baik n tidak trburu2.......

dlm mggu ni sume org trtekan dgn wktu yg semakin sgkt utk mengulangkaji n jadual exam yg sgt2 padat.......awk kne hadapi semua ini dgn tenang........mse mmg xkn tggu kte, jd gunakn dgn sebaik nye....jgn berputus ase dulu tau.....hr ini n esok msh ade lagi.....ingt xape yg sy ckp sblm ni....."disaat2 kita merasakn yg kita sudah tidak mampu utk berdiri dan ingin berputus asa, sbnr nye kta sudah hmpir dgn kejayaan itu. ape yg kita prlukan adalah tgkt sedikit lagi usaha drpd yg sblm nya shgga kta berpuas hti n bersyukur dgn sgla usaha n penat lelah yg telah kita buat".........

jgn mengaku kalah dlu tau....wlupn awk rs awk da xmampu nk buat ape2 sbnr nye awk bleh......usaha kn dlu stkt yg awk mampu lakukan......yakin kn diri awk yg awk bleh buat spt mane org lain bleh.......awk kne yakin tau.....Allah da bg kesempurnaan anggota bdn pd kita jd guna laa sebaik nye.....klu awk rs mcm msh xbrsmgt lg sng cte pk mcm ni laa.....kita skrg berada kat Malaysia sebuah negara yg aman damai.....cube byg kn klu kte sdg bljr kat universiti luar ngra yg tibe2 ade perang....haaaa, takoot kn.....blja dlm keadaan ketakutan sbb ble2 mse je bleh kne serang......soo, kte kne bersyukur tau....

klu trlintas difikiran kita lbih baik mati drpd mcm ni, cube fikir org yg dh mati.....die seboleh2 nye nk hidup smle........klu kte mati cube fikir org2 yg akn kte tgglkn........mak n ayah kte yg telah penat melahirkn kte n menjaga kte ape perasaan die ble kehilangan kte....sapa yg akn jga dieorg nnt......klu kte mati dlu mcm mane kte nk bls jasa dieorg......org yg syg kn kte juga akn sedih sgt2 ble kte xde.........mcm mane dgn kehidupan die nnt, andai kate die xmampu nk kwl perasaan die sbb trlalu syg kn kte....mane tau nnt die akn membahayakn diri die jgk.......soo, selagi kte hidup bersyukur kn nyawa yg Allah telah bg n Die msh memberi peluang utk kte bernafas kembali setelah bgn dr tidur......

awk....dapatkn ketenangan dalam hti awk tau.......bacalah Al-Quran setidak2 nye bc laa yasin utk tenang kn hti awk.......Insyaallah hti awk akn tenang.....ble awk mengalami kesukaran utk tidur, cubelah utk berzikir n berselawat.....Insyaallah awk akn dpt tidur dgn lenanya.......solat kne jga, jgn tggl tau....klu trtggl Qada kn solat tu....sekurg2nye kte xmerasa trhutang ape2.......perubahan secara drastik mmg sgt sukar.......sy pun mcm tu jgk......sy xlaa sempurna n xjgk sealim mana.....sy jga ada kala nya trpesong jaoh.......juga selalu lalai......tp xsalah kn utk kte slg mengingati antra 1 sama lain.........

klu mampu, awk buat laa solat hajat......mntk je ape2 ngn Allah sbb Allah Maha Mendengar lagi Maha Mengasihani....Allah ske dgn hamba nye yg sentiasa berdoa kpd die.......jd awk mntk laa ape saja yg awk nk....xde sape2 pun yg bleh hlg prmintaan awk......mnta lah dgn hti yg ikhlas......Insyaallah hajat awk akn diperkenankn......

ini bkn laaa bebelan yg sy nk buat sprt selalu nye......anggap laa ni sbg nasihat dr seseorg yg awk prnh kenal......klu bleh sy nk ckap sume ni dpn2 awk biar awk mndgr satu2......tp sy msh xde keberenian tu......sy rs ckup laaa skdr drpd sebuah penulisan dlm blog sy.....sy hrap awk dpt menerima nasihat sy dgn hti yg trbuka......sy bkn laaa seorg penasihat yg handal......bkn jga seorg pengamal yg baik.....tp mane yg sy mampu sy akn cube lakukan nye......sy hrap awk bleh berfikiran positive n focus dlm exam ni sprti mane awk nk sy focus dlm exam sy ni......

sy mntk maaf sbb jrg mghubungi awk.....bkn nye sy xnk.....awk nk tau, sy nk sgt2 hubungi awk....tp sy xbrani....sy tkt sy ni mengganggu awk....awk mnta sy memahami keadaan awk.....n sy mencuba utk memahaminye......wlupn sy xdpt membaca fikiran n perasaan awk.......awk....sy rndu sgt2 kat awk......rs mcm nk jmpe awk je...nk tgk muka awk yg sgt kiut & senyuman awk yg sgt2 sweet pd pandangan sy......nsb baik sy ade pic2 awk....dpt jgk mengubat kerinduan sy yg amat2 sgt ni......da smpai tahap dewa da.....;p

sy hrap awk dpt menjawab exam dgn baik.....klu pun awk xtahu nk jwb ape, jgn sesekali tgglkn kosg tau....buat je ikt ape yg awk tahu......kdg2 ia dpt membantu kte jgk ckit2.....jgn lupe cek peralatan2 yg awk ade.....pstikn jam tgn tu bergerak jarum2 nye.....psti kn sume pen2 n pensil dpt berfungsi dgn baik....begitu jgk dgn kalkulator kne ade bttry yg ckup......pembaris kne ade tau nk jwb akaun nnt....IC n slip exam make sure letak kat tmpt yg selamat n senang dilihat.....slmt buat preparation ye......(^_^)

jgn risau ttg sy.......utk xmerisaukn awk....sy da pstikn sy mkn dgn ckup nye......tidor dgn ckup nye.....n stdy dgn ckup nye......(^_^) wlupn kdg2 sy sdey sgt2 n menangis, sy cube utk menceriakn diri sy dgn sebaik2 nye.....Alhamdulillah semua nye brjalan dgn lancar even virus malas sy kdg2 dtg menyerang.....hehehe sy rs lega ble dpt luahkn mcm ni......wlupn xluahkn kn pd sesiapa, sekurg2 nye sy ade blog tmpt sy nk luahkn perasaan......slmt stdy utk final exam n jgk slmt beramal utk stiap hari.....i love u soo much from the bottom of my heart......mmmuuuaaaahhhhhh